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…Take deep breath.

 

And close your eyes….

 

Can you see God?
Can you fell His presence?
I cannot

For the past 9 months, I took a very great risk by agreeing to teach CE (Christian Education). Hence, they started to call me as a Faith Builder. It wasn’t a not-thoroughly-thought decision. I did think about it over and over again before agreed and took the challenge.

I’m not going to lie to you. It’s an easy task. You know the teachings and you teach the teachings, as simple as that. No need to make a thorough grading. It is done by observation, and to top it up, no ‘C’s are allowed. So it’s between A or B. It’s teachers’ dream.

Is it?

I’m not going to lie to you. It will haunt you. It’s a job for a saint. Whereas we know that there’s no saint in this world. People are putting you in a parameter that Jesus Himself could not fit (If He could not fit). The Torah, they so called-unaccidentally-rename. I have to be nice at all time. Friendly and smiley at all moments. Honest, just, willing, kind, loving…everyday. Soft, tender, patient and full of forgiveness. Oh, yeah, right! And of course, the presure inside. No showing-too-much-tan clothes, no beer, no over-excesive shopping, no late-midnight hang outs…or not without a ready explanation if you bump with a student. Yup, you better be a saint to do this.

This is why the-so-called vocation is important. Yup. No one has the ability to do this job, not me definitely. But if you are called to do it, than you have to do it, as simple as that.

I’m not going to lie to you. This should be piece a cake. It should be…but it’s not. Faith is a living thing. You have to feed and nurture it healthily otherwise it will die. Or it will grow poorly and out of nutrition. Faith is an invinsible living thing. You cannot see it physically. Sometimes, in a windy-cold-day, you cannot even feel it’s there.

That is the real challenge. Well, you cannot imagine a faithless faith builder, can you? Hence, we have to be strong. Even when we cannot feel and see it. It’s there. Because it’s there since the beginning and it will be there till the end.

So…take deep breath and close your eyes.

Can you see God?
Can you fell His presence?
I cannot

But it’s okay. Because it’s there since the beginning and it will be there till the end.

 

 

 

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image is taken from http://faintings.blogspot.com/

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Written by vallaura

March 8, 2011 at 9:25 PM

Posted in Me, Thoughts

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