Carpe Diem

/,kärpā ‘dē,em/

Exclamation

Used to urge someone to make the most of the present time and give little thought to the future.

Well, that is not the reason why I seize my day, especially today. In fact, it is because I give so much thought to the future that I make the most of myself to seize the day.

Yeah, lately I got this uneasy feeling that I would soon say bye bye to someone, that I found significant to me. Bits and bits of things made me more aware that it might happen just around the corner of May. Hence I had been secretly crying over it. And multiple time bursted into unimaginable melancholy mood. It was almost like I had fell in love with her. The emotions had been immensly crazy and unsteady.

I spent 5 minutes with her talking about work. And when I thought it would bring some calmness to my feeling, it brought a hurricane of feeling of separation. Awful! I had never been like this before not even when I broke up with my man. So I texted her for dinner. Pretending unaware of her absence, I found her inviting me to stay at her apartment for Korean Noodle dinner. So, there was I disturbing her solace and solitude at her sanctuary. She was still unaware of my presence near her not merely for a Korean Noodle dinner. I did not have the heart to tell her that I had been crying over her. And that I might be the one who would got hurt badly of her decision.

Yes, oh dear, what a MAY Day!