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I found her.

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For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him.

Kafe Antzokia, Bilbao, Spain

A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance.

To be honest, I did not manage to write any piece for the passfew days as I promised myself to. Well, now I am trying to catch up. I hope it still feels as if it happened on the day.

Storm

When you go through deep waters, I will be with you.

A simple reminder in life.

My Birthday Card

Give thanks in all circumstances.

I just got this card from my friend. It’s a tradition for us to write a wish or something when anyone of us celebrate birthday. I know my birthday was a couple of weeks ago, but apparently this card was in someone’s bag, almost forgotten. I felt so happy when I received it since last year there was some misunderstanding that I wrote my own card for myself. LOL.

Stay safe

The Lord bless you and keep you.

I broke all my life codes just to write those two words, resulting a horrible nightmare, waking up to a feeling of crying. That’s fine. Because I want you to be extra careful and stay safe, even though that caused me to tear.

RE: I refuse to refuse anyone

I  was reading I refuse to refuse anyone, a blogpost by J.S. Park when I remembered my conversation with my at-that-time new friend in Berlin. She shot me point blank by saying ‘you are christian, of course, you do not accept the idea of LGBT community’. And I spent a whole 45 minutes trying to explain to her what my view is. That was my first open conversation about LGBT community outside Indonesian community or christian community, in a language that is not my mother tongue.

The short reading made me re-question my view about LGBT community and I am confident to say the same Truth that I still hold tight until now, that:

1. God did not create LGBT community. If He did, The Bible would have recorded it.
2. Jesus died for everyone who is in LGBT community. The Bible says He died for us all.

What’s the different of me and you with everyone else in the LGBT community? Nothing. He did not create us for what we are as well. But Jesus died for us anyway. If someone then asked me, can a gay person be a pastor? Then I would ask back, can a thief be a pastor? Or can an adulterer be a pastor? Or can a sinful person be a pastor?

But I am still struggling to answer another question, which is, can a gay couple get married in a church?

I know church is for sinful people. Like a hospital is for the sick and not the healthy, hence church is for sinful people and not holy people. I know all is welcome.

But…

Church is also a community that (try to) observe the Holy Bible. And marriage sacrament is arranged carefully by the Bible how it should be and for who it should be. I dont think that church should marry any guy couple. And I think it’s not against human’s right.

I am a very sinful person. But if I asked a church to marry me with a man, who is my husband-to-be, I am pretty sure they wouldnt mind. What makes me any different with a gay person? I might be even more sinful than any gay person in this world. And just because… I am allowed and he is not. I do not understand, yet.

My question goes back to the gay couple who is asking to be married in a church. Why would you want to be blessed from people who dont want to do it for you in the first place? Is it also just because you need the legal status of marriage, even though the term marriage hold by the church is different with the one you hold?

Everything is still vague. But until it is clear for me, I refuse to refuse anyone. And to judge others.

Food Cult: Nasi Bebek Cak Yudi, Surabaya

FYI, my iphone is dying. Sadly, even electronic has an age. So, before I deleted all the photos there, I am going to spam my blog with those photos. 😉 

These ones were taken when I went to Surabaya for my friend’s wedding in 2012. Surabaya is the scond biggest city in Indonesia. It is in the eastern part of Java Island. The most famous cuisine among others is their duck dish. This one, Indonesian all time favourite, is fried duck with jasmine rice and chilli codiment.

Cooking in Denmark: Stir fried Longbeans

This is my favourite vegetables dish. I love it so much that I cooked it the first time I arrived in Copenhagen last year.

Jeniffer Lopez’s AMA Video

Doing my paper.

Needing something energetic.

Watching this video.

Thinking which quote from The Book that I could cherry-picked for it.

….

Nothing.